Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

was just thinking about the english oral topic today. then it hit me. it felt amazing, but at the same time too overwhelming. i fear that after thinking through everything, i'd forget them all. i dont want to forget them. -crosses fingers.

i didnt think all that happened would mean so so so much to me. i realised that many of my character traits had not only came from my parents but from her, my grandma(: she taught me so many things that i think without her i'd be such a loser and a cacat rubbish. everything's just flashing through my head now. im shocked that i can even remember such information. they're as clear as crystal flying through my head right as im typing this post.

the inside of the house, the aircon that i always switch on, the toilet that i spend so much time in, the running treadmill, the small little table we eat at. goodness, i feel like im inside the house right now. it's just amazing. ive never thought about all these before and it's only now that i realise all these memories have been kept so close to my heart. if i had a choice, i'd still choose growing up with my grandma. being sent to my grandma's place every morning before my dad goes to work (which meant that i had to wake up exceptionally early) was not dreadful at all. blessing in disguise huh. small little sacrifices like waking up early was exchanged for big big big presents that cant even be compared with those little sacrifices.

honestly, i feel that im not making any sense. i mean everything's not being processed and i find it so difficult to express all my thoughts. it's just like a movie playing in my head now. how i wish there's a connector that can help transfer all these thoughts into the computer and change them all into words. all that's in my head now are pictures, oh ! those wonderful pictures. some frozen, some moving (like those in Harry Potter).

my grandma played such a big and important role in making me who i am today. thank you mama (: i guess you wouldnt understand all that im feeling now. it's probably difficult for one to connect and feel the way im feeling now. i dont blame you (:

she taught me how to cycle, how to play badminton, how to bowl, how to swing on the swing myself, how to climb the monkeybars etc etc etc. i think i would be such a loser if not for her ! i'll never forget how she stands behind us, holding on to the back of the bike trying to help us cycle straight. heh(: thinking back, she wasnt that young ! haha ! i remember her trying so hard to run after us, run as we were on the bike cycling. gosh. such an amazing grandma !

i learnt how good marmite tastes ! i learnt how to eat soyasauce with rice-plain. i learnt the art of colouring. yes, my grandma rocks at colouring okayy ! :D yay for her ! she taught us how to dance the tango and the cha cha chas. she was such an amazing dancer. (she won many many awards. she was a dancer last time okay ! powerrrr right ?) she knew how to make glue. yes, make them. she'd stir this and that together and bam ! glue(: it's so sad that right now she cant remember how to make the glue. it's a wonderful memory that i hope to relive, but she cant remember how to ): guess it's my fault for not taken the effort to remember.

she taught me how to climb on top of the monkey bars, swing down from the monkey bars, hang upside down too ! she's just the coolest, really. the little 'mountain climbing' things they have at the playgrounds used to seem big&huge. she taught me how to climb those things. wow, come to think of it, she taught me alot of things. -shocked.

those wonderful family outings. the five families together, going to Sabah&Australia. Australia was just the best place huh. it was simply the best holiday. yes, i've been to many wonderful places but it's one of those holidays that i remember so clearly. the super uncletay who was the only one who dared going out into the cold winter wind while the rest of us stayed in the airport terminal (while waiting for the minivan). the opening of the wrong door and how the guest woke up and opened the door. heh ! the play-cooking time my cousins&i had while the rest went out for supper. we had Chicken Porridge for supper, cooked by my grandma. i think i've never tasted better Chicken Porridge !

the farm stay, the Margaret River, the many different places we went together. the Addidi-Adidas models (: the Kikoman Special Soya Sauce. the open attic with beds, the midnight movie and icecream after. omg, you should try going on a holiday with all your cousins ! i remember so vividly.

my grandma's just the best. she's the one who calls up and checks on me etc. ahhh (: it's so sad that the number of times we've met has decreased so so much. now talking to her so little means that ive forgotten many many teochew words. i find it so hard to construct a proper sentence when im talking to her. ahhh ): it's sad, it's sad.

many many thoughts have been running through my head. the many memories that ive kept close to my heart without me knowing have been triggered cos of that oral topic. if i was asked a question that required me to talk about these memories, i'd cry infront of the examiners. i think it's something i treasure so much and something i'm trying to save. i've been pushing for more family holidays but it's difficult to have since everyone's now older. different school holidays, difficult to get leave from work. many many things that has now stopped us from going for a family holiday. but definitely, i'll not forget the wonderful trips we've gone for. it brought all of us closer together and guess that's why we cousins are so close.

i wonder what will happen on the day everything is lost. i dont want to look back thinking that i've wasted precious time and think of the times we could've done this&that. or maybe we should've done this&that. i dont even want to think of the day i'd feel such overwhelming grief and sadness.

In everything, give thanks ! and yes, this is something i treasure and something i'd never stop giving thanks to God for. Praise the Lord with all my heart, praise him for he has done great things !

I LOVE YOU GRANDMA (:

NI SHI SHANG DI GEI WO DE SHEN MING TIAN SHI.

AI SI NI LE ! <3333

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